I am taking two (generic) 20mg Prilosecs when I get up, 2-3 75mg (generic) Zantacs throughout the day, and another 20mg Prilosec when I go to bed. Oh, and after all this? I still have to take about 4-6 doses of Maalox throughout the day. Not to mention the promethazine (nausea med), which sometimes I can get away with just a half a pill of, but I don't go a day without needing at least a little, and it makes me high as a kite.

I can only eat tiny portions, so I'm having to eat like 6 times a day to get enough food, and I can't handle more than tiny amounts of fat, can't eat much sugar, I can't handle chocolate, I can't move around too much, I absolutely cannot double over, I can't... do... anything. I can't take a damn thing for anxiety (I've been avoiding even my allergy meds unless I absolutely have to take them) so all I can do is absolutely distract myself from anything anxiety-inducing at all costs, because god knows that would make the reflux worse, which means I've gone completely insane and my usual inability to remember what I'm supposed to do and what order to do it in has been multiplied 10 fold and I just... Ugh, I cannot stand this anymore.

I'm so. tired. of this. This doesn't make any sense. Why has this happened all of a sudden? My body just decided I wasn't useless enough, so it had to incapacitate me even further? And it had to wait till the beginning of summer to do this, so that I've essentially just totally missed a whole month of my favorite season?

It could be worse, but that thought doesn't make me any less cranky right now.

eta: And I just spent 50 minutes on the phone trying to get an appt. with a doc, getting passed from person to person, only to be told in the end someone would call me back in about an hour. Seriously, people, what the hell.